Visit #1

Michelle is our homestudy agent. Her job is to write a review about us, our home, our families, our marriage, and anything else she notices. She seems nice. But her questions make me nervous. I'll admit it I don't care to talk much about my family. Sure, they are loving. My mom has a big heart, but we are really different people. As a child I was really close to my siblings, close like a second mother not close like fun. I didn't want to admit that my brother, sister and I all have different fathers and I have never seen mine. I didn't care to say that my brother (18) is in jail and my sister(21) has yet to graduate from anything. I am selfish. I don't want the negative aspects of the people I am related to, to reflect upon myself. But Michelle is kind and just continues to ask questions and scribble down my answers. Then we get to talk about Jim's family. I pine after Jim's family. He grew up in one home. He lived with a mom and dad who were both teachers. He even got to say his dad was his best friend. I worked real hard to not cry. When I don't want to cry I start thinking about baseball, that's my trick. But then I was thinking about the Red Sox and that kinda made me want to cry more. (not our best season)
Finally, we moved on. Got to talk about the things I am proud of...college, friends, our marriage, jobs, boston, and even lincoln. Showed her around the house. Then she left us with a large stack of papers that are in need of filling out.
I'm on vacation these next two weeks. Vacation from school = full time adoption work. Getting finger printed, visiting the doctor, and too many other details to remember.
Michelle is coming back next Saturday to talk more and collect some of the stack of papers she left with us. Excellent.